We all want to change the world. Or, do we? Maybe more than that we want to impact it with who we are and how we particularize the truth. I don’t mean how we “slant” the truth or “distort” the truth. What I mean is we each have a particular piece of it in our handprint. A particular understanding, a particular enthusiasm for how we know Reality and what excites us about it. Each person has this contribution, this knowing, this doorway into the truth, in a way unlike any other. I realize these are big, disputable words… “truth,” “reality”… but keep reading.
You are here now, but you’ll never be here again in this way. Not in a past life, not in your next birth. Whatever your faith or take on what is so, it will never exist again in this exact, precise way–the you who reads these words. And therefore, it will not impact the world in the quite the same way and not again at this time in history.
I long to truly and helpfully impact this world. I would love to have a world party in the open field, over the ocean, atop the Himilayas, in the cathedral of a forest, gazing down at the Earth from the moon. We have a conduit to such an exchange, through this world wide web. It is only a matter of time before that web finds its way to the moon.
I would love to excite the molecules of curiosity, the wisdom in each person to express itself. Dzigar Kontrul teaches us that we have to squeeze the truth to extract its essence. I would squeeze with devotion. I would squeeze my essence and yours. Each essence to express itself. Not to copy, but to create as only you or I can. And now, if ever there was a time when this was needed, now is that time.
We have to concentrate–and create a new world.
Everyone is an expert and a student. I’m an expert on bursting and a student of patience. I’m an expert on flavor and a student of enjoyment. An expert on survival and a student of doing nothing. An expert on conception and a student of fruition. What are you an expert on? What is it that eludes you? That you don’t know but wish to? Wouldn’t it be great if we could be each other’s teachers, each other’s students?
What if that which you particularly know and what you’d ask can save this world from destruction?
Maybe de-struc-tion comes from saying we know something we really don’t and throwing into doubt that which we do. If we contemplate such a concept deeply, we might discover that the structure of war and violence is instruct-ed by this perversion of our knowing and not-knowing. We fear not knowing, not having all the answers. We fear being wrong, being “found out.” We feel fraudulant. So we project our feelings of being deficient. We point “out there.” And then we attack out of fear. Acting out of the fear of not knowing, we construct the wall around us that condemns us to a realm of making up answers in an attempt to manipulate Reality, both ours and the world’s, to protect us from judgment. We make up answers versus mining meaningful solutions from within. We construct a false sense of self and other. We construct a “truth” that leaves us groundless.
And we throw into doubt what we know. We know we want to love and be loved. We know we long to trust. We know we need tenderness and contact. We know we don’t want to suffer, that we want to be happy. We know we don’t know everything.
We know we don’t want to be afraid to know such truths about ourselves. We know we want to feel safe to admit and allow them. We know we need the space for our curiousity. A way to abide with it and to find the true knowing. The true wisdom.
Maybe con-struct-ing a new world requires pointing in. Maybe it requires our cultivating kindness and compassion for ourselves so that we can feel kindness and compassion for others. Maybe it requires that we open our eyes and wonder, what is it that we see, what is it that is in front of us, calling to us to pay attention, to come into the present moment?
And then to respond.
Deirdre A. Cole
Mount Kisco, NY